The other day I saw a note that my birth son and birth grandson were going up to a relatives cottage for the long weekend.
At first it hurt.
I went outside to calm and I started to think…what if he hadn’t been taken from me.
- he wouldn’t be going to that cottage because he would not be related to them
- he would not living in the province where he is because he would be living where I am now
- he would not be with his girlfriend
- he would not have his son, at least not the son he has now. He could have a child but likely the Mother would be different
It made me think of how so many things would change. The ‘butterfly effect’.
Does it make me wish it had never happened? Yes I wish it never happened.
But when I look at the big picture, he would lose so much if it had been different. If he had stayed with me.
Still not easy for me, but I have to be happy for him…
