I have to tell you that each post I write brings up lost memories, and/or brings up huge amounts of emotion because of what I can remember, and what I cannot remember about my sone being taken away from me and given up for adoption. It is so hard.
After my post last night I had nightmares. I woke up very upset and told my husband about it. This morning I could not remember what the nightmare was. I asked him to tell me and he said no, because then I would remember. I told him he was right. He was being kind.
Memory plays a huge role in major events in your life, both happy and sad. The memory block can be a life saver. I know for me I now realize it was for me with the loss of Jamie. I’m really not sure I would have made it if I had remembered everything.
Really, how can anyone have a child taken away from them, given up for adoption without consent, and not be traumatized. In fact, how can anyone have that happen and come out of it alive at the other end.
My child was given away for adoption at birth without consent — It surprises me that I lived through it. It may surprise you as well… more to come.
