Why was it different for me when I got pregnant?
My Mum told at a young age that my Granny was pregnant with her before she was married. I even remember my Mum telling me that my Granny sang in the church choir when she was pregnant with her before she was married.
So the family pattern starts (or tradition?) At least as far as I know this is when it started.
- My Granny did not give up my Mum for adoption.
- My Mum was pregnant with my sister before she was married. My Mum did not give up my sister for adoption.
- My sister was pregnant with her first child before she was married. My sister did not give up her daughter for adoption.
I was pregnant with my son. The birth father bolted.
My Mother and Father told me that I was welcome to stay in their home with my child. It wasn’t until he was born that I was told he was given up for adoption.
I went home alone.
I did not want to give up my son for adoption.
In all these years since I lost my son I have wondered
WHY?
Why was my Granny allowed to keep my Mum?
Why was my Mum allowed to keep my sister?
Why was my Sister allowed to keep her daughter?
And yet my son was taken from me? Why was it different with me? Why were they allowed to keep their child and I was not?
Because they all eventually married the birth father, probably. But my parents told me they would welcome me and my child in their home until I could get back on my feet.
Why, after such a history, would they take my son from me?
I never found out the answer…
It destroyed my relationship with my parents. As soon as I was able, healed enough, I left their home and never looked back.
