As I write this I can honestly say that I don’t remember much between the epidural and the delivery room. Let me tell you what I do remember. Probably once I write this I will remember more in my dreams. After I received the epidural I was told the contractions would ease and the swelling… [Read More]
Is It Time I Go Silent
My birth son has gone quiet, again. My birth son, Jamie, decided to end his old life and created a new life about a year or so ago. A new life with his wife. His wife that they ended their relationship decades ago but came back together. Now they are enjoying a new beginning. I… [Read More]
A Birth Child Feels The Same Loss As The Birth Mother
I thought when my birth child, my son, was taken from me, I was the only one who felt the loss. I have come to understand that we suffered the same loss. When he was taken away from me shortly after birth I felt this emptiness. Like my heart and soul had been taken away. I longed… [Read More]
The Love Of A Child
There is never any minute, or any day, that you don’t feel the loss of my child. This video touches me. Check it out here My son was taken from me but I finally found him and I am so thankful . I love you my Jamie! Jan
My Talk With An Adoptive Mother
I have been going through some rough times lately, as you can probably tell by my lack of updates on meeting Jamie and my blog posts. These tough times do not have anything to do with Jamie. (He is fine and I received an email from him a couple of days ago.) Through these difficult times… [Read More]
Reflections From A Birth Mother On Her Birthday
Well I have to admit I am shocked that I made it to this birthday. I am now 62 years old. WOW. I never thought I would make it to this age. I always thought I would die at the same age as my mother. I have now lived longer than her. But that is not… [Read More]
What If My Birthson Hadn’t Been Taken From Me
The other day I saw a note that my birth son and birth grandson were going up to a relatives cottage for the long weekend. At first it hurt. I went outside to calm and I started to think…what if he hadn’t been taken from me. he wouldn’t be going to that cottage because he would not… [Read More]
The Ups & Heartbreaks of Social Networking
Social networking allows you to connect at a distance. That is a wonderful thing. My birth son does has a profile on Facebook, sort of. There is no pic and he really hasn’t posted anything. My birth son’s girlfriend is very active on Facebook. We are friends and we comment back and forth every now… [Read More]
A Birth Mother’s Journey
My Birth Child Was Taken From Me At Birth A mother having her child taken at birth is something that no one can understand unless they have gone through the experience. I know this personally. My son was taken from me right at birth. When I entered the hospital in labor I believed I was taking my… [Read More]
My Birthday — My Birth Son Called!
I know I am jumping around on my posts so I am going to start a new thread to talk about finding my birth son. Right now I want to tell you something magical that happened to me. In all the years since I found and met my son he has never called on my birthday. … [Read More]