My Journey To Find My Birth Son Jamie
I was reading my journal tonight because I wanted to update my ‘meeting Jamie’ posts and came across something I thought I should talk about. I think I mentioned before that after Jamie was taken from me I went back to the doctor who delivered him to ask him to help me get him back. He refused… [Read More]
I’m sorry it’s been such a long time since I did a post. Shortly after I did the last post my 18 year old cat, KC, go very sick. It was not an easy time, and there was little I could do. She passed away at home the first week in January. It broke my heart… [Read More]
As the holiday season fast approaches for those of us who have lost a birth child it is not something we look forward to. As I told you in my post on December 23rd 2010 here It’s almost 2 years since I made that post. I wish I could say much has changed, it hasn’t.… [Read More]
I have had many ‘life losses” in my life. I think, in all truth, that the brutality of my father against me was my first ‘life loss’ the loss of innocence. The brutality started before I could speak. It lasted for more years than I care to remember, really broke up our family, and I do… [Read More]
I read an article the other day in our local paper. It was about a 15 year old girl who was forced to give up her baby at birth in 1982. No, this is not news for those of you who read my blog. There are a lot of us out there who had this happen… [Read More]
Recently Jamie’s son, my birth grandson, had his prom. I felt very privileged to have him share a bit of that time with me and share some pictures. It filled my heart with such joy. I felt that we may have finally connected and there may be a chance to build a relationship with my… [Read More]
When I got back to the place I was staying on this visit I could not sleep. I tried to go to bed around 1:00 am but just tossed and turned. I was awake at 5:00, wandered around the apartment thinking of everything that had happened. Wondering if I would see my birth son again. I… [Read More]
At one point during dinner Jamie left the table and his girlfriend told me it was going really and the he was happy. She said he figured that he would just come and meet me and then leave — say an hour at most. He had even made plans to go out with his friend… [Read More]
A bit of background… before I flew in to meet my birth son I went through all sorts of photos I had of family members. I wanted to show him pictures of his family, his birth family. I wanted him to be able to see himself in not only me but the family pictures I had.… [Read More]
Mother’s Day has always been like a funeral to me. I am a Mother without my child. Every day is hard, but Mother’s Day is especially hard, much more so when my son was taken away from me, and the many years I spent trying to find him. Even after finding him, and connecting, it felt the… [Read More]
