As hard as it is sometimes to watch, because of my own experience of searching for and finding my birth son, I am committed to the show Long Lost Family. This show takes birth parents and birth children on a journey during which they come to understand more (for the parent) what their child went… [Read More]
The Loss Of My Child And PTSD
The years after my son was taken away right after he was born sent me into such a downward spiral that I thought the only way out of was to commit suicide. But I told myself I couldn’t do that to my son. What if he tried to find me only to find out I killed… [Read More]
What If I Met My Birthson Later In Life
Would Timing Have Made A Difference In My Relationship With My Birthson? Would it have made a difference if he was older, and I was older, when we met? I didn’t even think that it would until… I started recording the program Long Lost Family. Here is a quick overview of the show. From TLC network via… [Read More]
Does My Birth Child Ever Think Of Me
I know there is not a birth mother out there that doesn’t think of their birth child. I am sure there is not one birth mother out there that doesn’t wonder if their birth child ever thinks of them as well. But if your child was taken away at birth how can they even know to think… [Read More]
Giving Birth When Unmarried Runs In The Family
Why was it different for me when I got pregnant? My Mum told at a young age that my Granny was pregnant with her before she was married. I even remember my Mum telling me that my Granny sang in the church choir when she was pregnant with her before she was married. So the… [Read More]
All I Ever Wanted Was To Have Children
I knew at a very young age that I wanted children, lots of them. Even when I was a little kid I always knew I wanted a loving husband, children, a dog, a couple of cats, a home with a white picket fence. The whole 9 yards. That was my dream. I think it was so important to… [Read More]
Another Silent Mother’s Day
I hoped I would hear from him on Mother’s Day but there was only silence. I haven’t talked about it much here but the relationship with my birth son changed last year. Our relationship changed when he made major life changes. At first he talked to me about what was going on, but then he… [Read More]
When Your Birth Child Goes Silent
The silence of your birth child is hard.. very hard The relationship between a birth mother and birth child is not an easy one after they have connected. In the beginning, at least for me, there were a lot of questions, a lot of sharing, and a lot of pain. There was also a great deal… [Read More]
The Loss Of A Child Is The Worst Experience A Parent Can Experience
I was watching a program on TV tonight and a father was talking about the loss of his son through suicide. My heart went out to him. I did not lose my child through suicide. My child was taken away from me when he was born. Given up for adoption without consent because I was under age.… [Read More]
A Lovely Tribute Can Hurt
Did you watch the Oscars? If you are a birth mother I bet you know what I am going to write about. Jared Leto’s speech was wonderful. His thanks to his Mum touched everyone’s heart. I applaud him for his wonderful words, and I applaud his Mum for her ability to raise him. For many birth mothers… [Read More]