My Journey To Find My Birth Son Jamie
As the holiday season fast approaches for those of us who have lost a birth child it is not something we look forward to. As I told you in my post on December 23rd 2010 here It’s almost 2 years since I made that post. I wish I could say much has changed, it hasn’t.… [Read More]
Mother’s Day is a very difficult day for birth mothers. It’s a day where you think of all the Mothers out there that have family gathering to give her cards, flowers, etc. For most of us we only think of this day as what could have been, what should have been. A tremendous feeling of… [Read More]
I have had many ‘life losses” in my life. I think, in all truth, that the brutality of my father against me was my first ‘life loss’ the loss of innocence. The brutality started before I could speak. It lasted for more years than I care to remember, really broke up our family, and I do… [Read More]
I read an article the other day in our local paper. It was about a 15 year old girl who was forced to give up her baby at birth in 1982. No, this is not news for those of you who read my blog. There are a lot of us out there who had this happen… [Read More]
Not everyone gives up a child for adoption for the same reason. Some women give up a child because of the lack of the birth father’s support, or because as a single parent they don’t have the financial resources to care for the child, or because the child is not their husband’s child — there… [Read More]
I am in the unique situation of having a birthson, plus a husband that was adopted (birth father — adoptive mother). I don’t know much about my son being told he was adopted. My memory is that my birth son said he was young when he was told and said something like “ok, can I… [Read More]
Jamie’s girlfriend called me the next day and we had a very long conversation. She said that no matter what Jamie did she would at least allow me to have contact with my birth grandson — her son (though I had not met him yet). A brief from my journal — August 25, 1992: She said how… [Read More]
The other day I saw a note that my birth son and birth grandson were going up to a relatives cottage for the long weekend. At first it hurt. I went outside to calm and I started to think…what if he hadn’t been taken from me. he wouldn’t be going to that cottage because he would not… [Read More]
Recently Jamie’s son, my birth grandson, had his prom. I felt very privileged to have him share a bit of that time with me and share some pictures. It filled my heart with such joy. I felt that we may have finally connected and there may be a chance to build a relationship with my… [Read More]
When I got back to the place I was staying on this visit I could not sleep. I tried to go to bed around 1:00 am but just tossed and turned. I was awake at 5:00, wandered around the apartment thinking of everything that had happened. Wondering if I would see my birth son again. I… [Read More]
