I thought when my birth child, my son, was taken from me, I was the only one who felt the loss.
I have come to understand that we suffered the same loss.
When he was taken away from me shortly after birth I felt this emptiness. Like my heart and soul had been taken away. I longed for him. I did everything I could to try to find him, to try and bring him back into my arms, heart and soul.
As I have been reading more about what happens with a birth child and birth mother I have come to understand that my birth son also felt his heart and soul was taken away.
He was just a baby.
So he didn’t understand what was going on. All he knew was that he was not with his mother, that he felt abandoned.
That is the most powerful information I have received in all these years after losing my son. My baby, my birth son, was crying out for the mother he knew, the one he knew from hearing my voice, hearing my heart beat, and all that goes on in invitro. And when he was born he expected me to hold him and love him.
I thought I would and my heart and soul broke when it didn’t happen.
24 hours after I gave birth he was given away. I felt that everyone that could have, or should have helped me keep my child, had abandoned me.
It doesn’t matter if it is days or years later.
As a birth mother I have struggled with abandonment issues from day one and continue with these issues. I didn’t know it was from my baby being taken away from me. I knew I changed, my whole world changed, after he was gone.
One day I hope to be able to talk to my birth son about this. I believe the knowledge I have gathered from reading the book Primal Wound will help him as it is helping me. It can help you too.
Pick up a copy of the book Here!
